Level 2 Discovering Your True Self
Your True Path your True Self and the Meaning of Your Life are like the petals of a lotus. When one begins to open so do the others. Once your flower is open you realize that the lake is covered with blossoms
I spent over forty years trying to discover my ‘True Self’. My mistake was to assume that the True Self was an essence or spirit that could be refined, distilled or otherwise separated from the rest of ‘me’. It sounds silly now, but that is what many spiritual teachers encourage you to believe. They come up with things like “At the core of your being is a True Self that you may have never known.”, or “There is a true and a false self that must be separated”. Others like the Buddhists, will only define the ‘true self’ by what it is not, they say: body ‘not self’, mind ‘not self’, emotions ‘not self’. Which leads you to search for some ‘true self’ that is not any of those things – Zen riddles.
As I say, I spend thousands of hours of meditation and contemplation trying to find a single ‘strand’ of truth in the ‘ball of wool’ the ‘the needle in the spiritual hay stack’, then I met a Canadian Philosopher called Craig Dillworth. Craig had a theory called ‘Simplicity’, this wasn’t simple or really anything to do with finding the ‘true self’ as such, but he has a super sharp mind and he got me thinking clearly. I adapted parts of his theory to form a concept I called the ‘Synthesis of Being’.
A ‘synthesis’ is a lot of different things all blended together to make one thing, like a cocktail, but a ‘Cocktail of Being’ doesn’t have the right ring. As soon as I got working on this idea I realized that the ‘True Self’ I had been searching for was a ‘Synthesis of Being’. I only mention the Synthesis of Self now because the notion that the True Self is a synthesis or cocktail is important and I want you to remember it.
OK, so the True Self is not any one thing, but a number of different things that are ‘blended’ together into a homogonous whole (homogonous means of even consistency, like milk. When milk goes sour it separates and is no longer homogonous). The Buddhists and others are not wrong; the mind, the emotions and body are never really our possessions we get to use them for while that’s all; like rental cars really. The mind, the emotions and body each have their own nature and they often squabble with each other and do things we don’t want them to. However, while we are alive and functioning the mind, the emotions and body become a something resembling a unified whole.
This can be compared to a band which has drums, bass, guitar, organ, vocals. To get a decent sound all the different players must ‘fuse their egos’ and become ‘one’, at least till they get back to the dressing room. Fortunately, the True Self is much more stable than a rock band.
The True Self is more than that though; a band has a ‘personality’, but no will power of its own to control the members, the True Self has both these attributes. Finding the will power of True Self is tricky though as it does not come from a single spot and our minds find it hard to comprehend anything that cannot ‘pinned down’ to a single location - which is why very few people ever find the power of the True Self. The True Self cannot be understood using any one sense, a Synthesis of senses of is required - it takes a Synthesis to catch a Synthesis, you could say.
Consider this: Some things about you never change; when you were baby, a kid, a teenager and so on; something has always stayed the same right? Let that idea ‘develop’ in your mind. Don’t try to define it, if you try to grasp it fades, but you ‘know’ it is there and the reason you can’t hold on to ‘it’ is because ‘it’ is holding on to ‘you’. This is the True Self, not a single persona but a synthesis of all the different people you have been, will be and even ‘could have been’, had your life been different. It can’t be held, but it is real, realer than what you are now, because what you are now will change and become something else in while. Your ‘day to day’ personality or Relative Self as I shall be calling it, is in a state of flux.
A Synthesis does not have to change though; it absorbs all your multiple personalities and binds them into one homogonous entity. This is how come we always appear to be one thing at one time. Without a True Self, you wouldn’t change from persona to another in an orderly fashion and your personality would descend into chaos; one person one minute another next – you would go completely insane. This is why I know for a fact that I have a functioning True Self, otherwise I would a gibbering idiot incapable of linking two thoughts together and the same goes for you.
This brings us back nicely to the nature of consciousness: sentient consciousness is a cohesive force that holds the long strings of molecules and complex biology of living beings together and prevents living flesh from turning into dead meat. So, your True Self is an evolved form of sentient consciousness that holds your various personalities thoughts, and emotions as one homogonous being - the True Self is what arranges your being and holds it together.
Well that’s the overview now lets look at the detail. The True Self comprises your body, mind and emotions. It is also the synthesis of the different ‘people’ you have been, will become, or could have been. We are born where we are born, and we live the lives we live, but you could have been born some place else, some other time. Wherever you are born you will adapt and develop a personality to try and cope with whatever life throws at you – if you had been born an Eskimo and you would have grown up an Eskimo. Your True Self can provide you with a personality to fit any circumstance.
It’s not just who your parents are that counts either. In any group of kids some are leaders, some followers, some loners and so on. Which of these you become is not just a matter of ‘innate personal traits’. In one group of kids you might be a leader, in another a loner, in another a follower, it depends on what the other kids are like; its relative - which is why I call the ‘every day personality’, the Relative Self. The Relative Self changes in stages as you grown up - baby self, toddler self, child self, teenage self, adult self, middle aged self, wrinkly self and finally crumbly self. Eight basic stages that we all go through for sure, though there can be more of course – single self, married self, and divorced self, for instance. How many Relative Selves have you had? Make a list if you can: I can’t because I have had too many.
It is even more complicated than that though, your Relative Self has ‘Sub Selves’, like ‘working self’, ‘home self’, ‘visiting Mom and Dad self’ and these are all distinct ‘sub’ personalities. There are five basic categories of Sub Self: with family self, with friends self, work self, leisure self and of course by yourself self. How many Sub Selves are ‘running’ at the moment? How much do you change from one to next? Answering these questions will greatly increase your ‘self knowledge’ or insight.
The complication of all these ‘selves’ is why everyone longs to find their ‘True Self’ as otherwise the word ‘I’ has a hollow ring to it. Some people do seriously lose track and have no consistency between their different ‘selves’ and so become - one thing today, another tomorrow. No one wants to be like this or be around people who are.
To have meaning the word ‘I’ must always link back to your True Self. Fortunately most of us have enough knowledge and communication with our True Self to get by; some more than others. People who are closer to their True Self are stronger and more purposeful; those out of touch are ‘flighty’ and insecure. If you are the ‘flighty’ type you will benefit the most from getting in touch with your True Self.
Getting in touch with the ‘True Self’ gives you a change to explore all manner of personality traits you didn’t know you had. These personality traits can be manifest into your Relative Self making a powerful evolution of personality. This has been happening to me since I found my True Self. My personality has changed far more than ever before, even though I am old and should expect to change less. The result is that I feel young and that time is getting longer for me. Last year seems like another life, I was totally a different person ‘way back then’’. I am accelerating instead of slowing down. This is making my life pretty crazy, but I would rather die than go back to feeling old again.
Another advantage of knowing your True Self is that it gives you the ability to give ‘being yourself’ a rest. Keeping a single well defined ‘Relative Personality’ is hard work, something times you need to let go, let go into the arms of the True Self - be something broad and easy, instead something tight and small. This something you can do when you are alone in a quiet place - just being yourself as they say. Without a clear link to your True Self over time you can become trapped in one Relative Self. When we are young the Relative Self changes regularly, as people age though they get stuck in a single Relative Self - a Relative Self that gets increasingly tired an frayed with age. Taken to extreme this ‘tired old’ Relative Self can become a hideous characterture of your younger self.
Personal change is vital, because no matter how smart you may be, one day life will throw you pitch you just can’t hit, and will have to pull out thing special, another ‘secret weapon self’ who can knock it for six. Everyone’s a winner, if you can find the right ‘self’ on the day and bring it to the fore. This ‘winner self’ can be found in the True Self - ‘If you reach down somewhere deep inside yourself’, as they say. There are lots of popular expressions like this, ‘Stop pretending to be someone else and just be yourself’,’ ‘You’ve changed, you weren’t like this before’, ‘be in tune with yourself’, ‘relax and be yourself’. All these sayings prove that to have a steady, consistent personality (a strong link to the True Self) is universally considered to be a ‘good thing’. Beware though, people use these kinds of remarks in arguments to try and throw you off balance, make you doubt yourself so that they can ‘put one over on you’ – not very nice at all.
The True Self is not a blank sheet; it has a unique and wonderful nature all of its own. The quality and power of your Relative Personality is dependant on how well it is in harmony with the unique qualities of the True Self. The Relative Personality is really a ‘manifestation’ of the True Self anyway. This is why you should contemplate your True Self as that is where you will find your personal ‘Meaning of your Life’ - what you are here for. I can’t tell you what that is, but I can tell you how to find out.
You must find your True Strengths, the strongest and most consistent aspects of your character. This is why insight is such an important quality and you have to really know yourself well to find your True Strengths. Take time out to consider all you Relative Selves and Sub selves over the years; which were truly the most satisfactory? What is it that you are best at? What makes you most reliably happy? (Not happy as in relation to a specific person or people, that doesn’t count, this book is strictly about the ‘U perspective’) In fact, you need to ignore what other people think is best about you as this usually means what best suits them. Once you have removed other people’s opinions from the equation it gets easier. It may take time but I can say with confidence that, if you Evolve your Consciousness it will become clear to you - you will find your True Path as I have found mine. Then your Relative Self will become a ‘hero or heroine’ of Evolving Consciousness instead of a drone servicing other peoples needs.
The Relative Self is a fascinating and beautiful thing in itself, (or should be) but it is also very delicate. The ‘self esteem’ of the Relative Self needs to carefully nurtured and kept ‘pure’. By a ‘pure’ self esteem, or ego I mean a ‘self esteem’ that is self reinforcing and not dependant on status to remain confident. Ego that is status oriented is always looking to others for affirmation and this decreases the willpower. Other people’s praise or disapproval is not something to base your life on – you must develop your own ‘values’ and stick to them. Worse still, having an ego that is dependent on others may temp you to ‘cut someone else down’ to ‘make yourself look taller’, which is a vile, but all too common habit( We all do this a bit in our own minds, which is not so bad).
The power of the Relative Self is derived from the True Self and ‘empowering’ the Relative Self is one of the most vital tasks of Evolving Consciousness. The Relative Self is what actually ‘paints the picture of your life’. Without the Relative Self the True Self is merely a field of energy filled with ideas. The True Self doesn’t really experience pain or loss and so it is the Relative Self that hurts when things go wrong. The Relative Self is the main tool of evolution as in this life; the True Self only evolves by using the Relative Self. Later I will show you how to transform the Relative Self into something much better and stronger, but for now you must make do with it.
We should work constantly to protect, train and strengthen the Relative Self. To do this we need to study the True Self so that we can align the True and Relatives Selves properly.
The True Self is cohesive and unifies the disparate (coming from separate places) parts of your being. Your life depends on the power of your True Self to ‘hold things together’; the more you boost this cohesive power, the more integrated and solid Relative Self will become (there are some powerful techniques for this purpose in the next section of this book). We imagine that our power comes from food and oxygen, but this is just what maintains the physical body. The real power source of the Relative Self, is the True Self, that is where all your love, inspiration, cool, passion, intuition and the ability to renew yourself come from – among other things, the True Self is like the ‘warehouse’ of your being.
As the power of the Relative Self comes from the True Self, so the power of the power the True Self comes from yet another, and fortunately the penultimate, (last but one) of the ‘selves’ the incomparable: Universal Self, the Self that is at one with the Universal Being, your personal direct link to the Sublime! The Universal Self is very hard to contemplate, as its boundaries are the boundaries of space and time. The Universal Self encompasses, (contains) billions of beings of which your True Self is but one. The relationship is in some ways similar to that between the True Self and Relative Self. The True Self contains thousands of ‘Relative Personalities’ and your Relative Self can only be one at time. The Universal Self contains billions of beings, and your True Self is just one of them. This may sound impersonal and at first the Universal feels distant and impersonal. (meditating on the Universal is scary and with reason, as you can ‘your lose soul’ doing so. The trick is to reach out to Universal Self for very short periods of time and withdraw to safety as I shall be explaining).
The Universal Self and the Universal Being, or God, are almost identical, but there is a subtle difference, a difference of perspective, of view point. Your Universal Self is centered on your True Self - the Universal Being is centered on the Evolution of all things. Your Universal Self is the face of God turned toward you, rather than radiating it all directions. This is how the personal link between you and the Sublime works.
The Universal Self embraces the whole of space and time and this makes the power of all creation available to you. The power of the True Self comes from the infinite and by Evolving Consciousness we can learn to harness that power – as you will discover dear readers if you persevere.
The Universal Self is incredibly powerful though and just the hint of its presence will greatly strengthen the ‘Totality of the Self’, there now you have the final and ultimate definition of Self! The Totality of the Self - all levels - all selves as one magnificent being. To fully realizing the Totality of the Self is ultimate goal because when you do you will cease to be human and become a god! However, in this life just the knowledge that these exalted realities exist is enough to turbo-charge your being. If you can catch the merest glimpse once in while you will become enlightened, so it’s worth the effort.
So what does all this ‘exalted talk’ mean in practice? Well, that depends on you, these concepts will only make any difference to your life if make them realities. To do this you must link ideas to emotions, and emotions to hormones - exalt your hormones baby; otherwise this book will remain ‘just words on paper’. This brings us back to internal dialog; you have to persuade your emotions to accept the Universal Self, The True Self and the Totality of the Self as realities. (The Relative Self we all accept as real already) This takes time and patience, but it can be done. You have already discovered that emotions are dumb and will believe anything if it is presented right. You need to read and re-read this book, so that it becomes a regular part of your internal dialog. Try to link the concepts to your life, I can’t really tell you how to do that, that’s your unique world, but I can give you some tips.
Be aware that your ‘day to day’ personality, your Relative Self is not permanent and changes from time to time. Be aware of your Sub Selves too. Try to establish how many such Subs Selves you have, how different they are from each other and what holds them all together. Doing this will help you to develop your power of insight. Next try recall how many different Relatives Selves you have ever had. Remember each Relative Self usually lasts for a whole phase of your development. So we have ‘baby self’, ‘kiddy self’; divide your life up any way you like. Can you remember the Sub Selves you have had before; that’s a lot harder. You need to do this because you need to get some idea of the ‘scope’ of your being - what can you become and what you are capable of.
By learning how you have changed you can learn has not changed. Remember the True Self never changes in quality. This is important as you need to find out what are your ‘True Strengths’. Your ‘True Strengths’, are what have always been best at doing, and give you your best hope of ‘True Success’; success that brings self fulfillment. The chances are that your ‘True Strengths’ are not being put to good use and this means that you will never be truly be happy or find your True Path. Your True Path and Your True Strengths are pretty much the same thing as one directly results from the other.
It all comes back to the Meaning of Life; your True Strengths give you your personal Meaning of Life – your ‘staring role’ or at least ‘hot cameo’ in the Evolution of Consciousness. Then you can bring all ‘selves’ and ‘sub selves’ into line and life starts to really make sense to you.
This brings us neatly back to the Mystical Monad, and the Russian Dolls (good name for a band?). The great thing about the Monad is it represents all the levels of being in one idea. Each ‘self’ is a Monad in it own right, ‘one’ of the multiple Monads they make up your Being, one within the other. This a where we will start the next meditation Mantra: I am Monad!
I am Monad
I am Perfect
I Love All Things
I am Monad
I am Perfect
I get High
Let’s go through the meanings one phrase at a time:
I am Monad.
You now have some idea of just what a powerful, complex and elevated symbol the Monad is. In terms of the Mantra when you utter the word Monad I want you to think of the True Self. The True Self is larger than your body, the size of your ‘aura’ about one or feet out in all directions. This is important as this is how you distinguish the True Self from the smaller Relative Self. It is by focusing on the True Self your personal transformation from chump to champ will be accomplished.
I am Perfect
The Perfect Self is the Relative Self upgraded and it is what you will become as an everyday reality. You will get up as Perfect Self, remain all day as Perfect Self and go to bed as Perfect Self, Relative Self will be history. Visualize a ‘perfect’ version of your physical, mental and emotional being at the point of young adulthood. Perfect in all aspects, pure and natural – your uncorrupted and incorruptible self
I am Universal
This refers to your Universal Self, your being as an aspect of the divine. This link between you and divine gives you your unique and wonderful qualities. It is both what joins you to all other livings and that which separates you from them at the same time – a profound symbol indeed.
I am High
To be high is to be elevated and able to comprehend exalted concepts. It also means to be intoxicated, drunk on the wine of eternity, stoned on the love of all things, out of your head - out of Relative Self head and grooving into the eternity.
To begin the meditation, sit in a quiet secure place, out of doors if possible. You must be comfortable but try to keep a good posture as a well aligned body promotes a well aligned consciousness. We will be using visualization, but the images do not have to be clear, what is more important is that image stimulates a feeling. When this happens it means that emotions are becoming engaged. Trying to get vivid images can be counter productive as they require a lot of concentrate and are prone to fade just when you need them to be clear. Coxing the emotions to link is subtle art and requires practice, so take your time and be patient. Pronounce the words carefully clearly and slowly, out loud or internally. Working out loud is a good idea at first as it makes the words familiar, then when you work internally the words will also be clear. Allow about 5 seconds per phase. Lets go through the Mantra one more to explain what you should feel.
I am Monad
The image/feeling is that that of the Monad as the True Self. Imagine yourself as a single round or egg shaped field of homogenous energy. The egg shape is the size of your ‘aura’ which extents from your physical body by a couple of feet all round. Within the field of light there are no definitions, partitions, no contrasts, no shade, just pure energy. Try to blank out your physical body totally if you can.
I am Perfect
Next, visualize a matrix of light beams forming within the egg. The beams take shape into a perfect of image of your physical being. Not you as you are, or were, but the master image of your being from which your Relative Selves arise and decline. This is a very beautiful thing indeed, the perfection of godhead as a living flesh and blood being. This image now floats in the ‘egg’ which forms a kind of cocoon of healing energy.
I am Universal
Now, rapidly stretch your awareness as far as it will go beyond your being, to very edges of space and time. This should feel like a ripple of energy spreading into space. Ideally, you should feel like this energy ‘bounces back’ off something. Do not leave your awareness out beyond your body, as soon as you have gone as far as you can begin to withdraw your awareness into your ‘Monad’ ball of light. If you stretch your awareness far enough ‘looking out’ you will become aware that there is something looking ‘back at you’ this is your Universal Self your link to the Divine Being. If you feel this make sure you retract straight away bring the power of the Universal into your Monad. If you let your awareness stay beyond the range of your aura too long your power will disperse – you want the power of the divine coming into you, not your power going out to it. All this may or may not be clear to you at first, but don’t worry as long as you are sincere in your efforts the link will be made, whether you feel yet or not.
I am Monad
I am Perfect
I get High
Stay within the image for the ‘Perfect Self but turn up the ‘volume’ of your emotions and try to feel as intoxicated as you can. Feel your body glowing with energy spreading out to your Monad ready for the next round. This is the ‘high’ point of the Mantra, after this you relax slightly before the next round. When you begin the next round you should ‘ratchet up’ a bit and start with a slightly higher level of concentration than the last. Continue like this for 15-20 minutes or until you think you have got as far as you can go. As a rule of thumb, after meditating for a while it will start to get harder, this is the ‘first point of resistance’. You should use the ‘edge’ of your will power to push on through this resistance. After that you should get ‘your second wind’ which will carry to a higher level. The trick is to stop at the peak of your performance before you start to tire a second time. You need to stop on a ‘high note’ as the way you end the meditation is very important. Like athletics, achievement in meditation is defined by finishing lines - the end is what you remember best. If you miss the high point and start to tire you will have to push through the second point of resistance, which can be done, but is mostly more trouble than it is worth.
Meditation for the True Self
Mantra meditations are ‘positive’ meditations that use powerful Concentration. Awareness and Concentration are both present all the time we are awake, but the balance between them changes. High levels of Concentration detract from Awareness. A positive meditation favors Concentration and so to compliment positive meditation you need ‘receptive’ meditation which uses very light concentration, and more powerful Awareness. To practice receptive meditation just sit and observe your breathing without trying to change it in anyway. Let you Awareness expand until it is the size of your Aura, which the same size as your True Sell, or Monad. Do you remember what I say about the True Self being that which has never changed all your life? Now I want you to become Aware of that unchanging Self. Don’t try to hold it, just relax into it, and let your everyday, Relative Self go. Stop being what you are today and be what you have always been. You will begin to feel more comfortable, more secure in the arms of your True Self and away from the pressure of everyday life. Remain like that as long as you like. You will working a lot with your True Self on this course and later you will learn beware of it all the time and to ‘work’ from that level.
What is it that you really own? A handful junk stuffed in to rented apartment? A second hand car bought on credit? No, what really own is the earth, stars, the four directions and all the Universal Life Force you can gather from them – you are rich, and if you are rich in Consciousness then the world is yours for the taking
If there is a single ‘secret’ to Evolving Consciousness it’s ‘gathering’ the Universal Life Force. To climb high enough to reach elevated levels of consciousness and get a really great sustainable ‘Natural High’ you need extra oomph – a little rocket fuel. The energy you can get from eating food and breathing oxygen simply won’t get the job done. It doesn’t matter how perfect your diet is, or how deeply you breath you will never get sufficient thrust to escape the ‘gravity’ of mundane existence and the material world will drag you back down to earth. With the power of the Universal Life Force at your disposal though you can learn soar and cruise at high altitude, way above the clouds. Drugs fake this effect by persuading your body to burn up energy reserves; this is why the best ‘buzz’ usually comes on your first few tries - after that it is a matter of ‘ever diminishing returns’. Energy gathering is the opposite and at first you may not feel anything much, but as your technique improves you get a bigger and bigger ‘hit’.
The Mystics, Yogis and Chi Gong masters of have long known the ‘secret’ of how to absorb the ‘Universal Life Force’ that is abundant everywhere and there for the taking. Different traditions call ‘Universal Life Force’ by different names; the Chinese call it ‘chi’ and in India it is known as Prana, there are many other names as well. Powerful energy gathering techniques are always kept in the hands of elite ‘masters’, their families and close associates who are made to swear to keep the secret. What they teach the rest of the followers is a ‘watered down’ version, with more ‘water’ and less knowledge as you go down the pyramid of the cult.
So what exactly is Universal Life Force? Universal Life Force is a subtle and complex type of energy with a primitive form of consciousness. It is the primordial (first or original) type of consciousness, ‘inorganic life force’ from which our consciousness, ‘organic life force’, has evolved. Universal Life Force is part of all evolution and may well be the cause of all evolution. Before I explain how to gather Universal Life Force though I am give you a ‘lightning’ history of the Universe. This is to make sure you have right perspective, and are ‘receptive’ for this crucial knowledge – knowledge without which significant Evolution of Consciousness is impossible.
Evolution makes matter and energy become ever more complex and well organized. The universe was once homogeneous (matter and energy evenly mixed), dark and without form. This changed and matter and energy separated and so ‘one thing’ became ‘two things’ - this was the first evolution. After that matter became, solid, gas, liquid, and energy became light, heat and electricity and so two became six. Evolution continued, matter and energy getting more and complex until today’s universe with its myriad galaxies, stars, planets, moons and smaller bodies. Each world has a unique physics and chemistry, its own special blends of matter and energy not found anywhere else. This is the evolution of the inorganic world.
At some point in the distant past life emerged on this planet. We don’t how this happened, but we do know it only happened once, as genetics has proved that all the plants and animals on this earth are related and come from one source; probably a few bacteria – so meet your ancestors every time you eat a bad curry. Scientists have been looking for any other source of life on earth, but have found nothing. They have also been experimenting to try and create life; making up ‘soups’ of complex molecules and exposing them to various types of energy, but without any success whatsoever. So, what we can say for sure is that life is either the result of some very special conditions that only occurred once and never again, or that it came from somewhere else. The odds are that life came to earth from some other world. If this planet had the right conditions to make life once, then it is highly likely that this would happen again. New strains of life would ‘spontaneously generate’, periodically, (once in while) and these strains would have different genetics from all the rest of life on earth. Life could have been ‘planted here’ by some alien race, or it could have made its own way here on some piece of space debris. Right now your guess is as good as anyone’s.
Evolution in the animal world has been relatively straightforward. Each new type of animal is more complex and intelligent that last. Our family tree goes something like: Worms, mollusks, fish, frogs, reptiles, mammals, monkeys, apes, and primates. More specifically all land vertebrates (animals with backbones which includes most people) are descended from catfish, which were the first fish to hunt on land. The results of evolution are there for all to see; compare a bird to a worm and there has been a significant upgrade; though maybe a worm wouldn’t agree. Just think of all the things that all of the different creatures of earth can do - now that’s what I call evolution!
Each of us is the result millions of productive matings, ‘triumphant fucks’, and at each mating some ‘sperm rich fluid’ is passed between the copulators. Mating ‘fluid’, gism, spunk or whatever you want to call it, is just a special type of blood. This means that the blood in your veins is literally billions of years old, older than Dracula – in fact blood is one part of your body that never ages. Just stop for second to take in implications that; your blood line goes back to the beginning of life, but if just one individual had been infertile or died before it could mate, then you would never have been born. That is how ‘special’ you are, like the winner of winners of a million rounds of American Idols. You wouldn’t think that to see most people though would you. Now do you see what I mean about human evolution having gone seriously wrong!
So, how long has Universal Life Force has been involved in the process of evolution? Certainly since life evolved as Universal Life Force and Consciousness are basically the same thing in different circumstances - ULF is ‘inorganic’ consciousness. It’s the same with matter, there is organic and inorganic matter, like the H20 (water molecules) in a pond, or the H20 in a turtle - same molecules different location. Universal Life Force probably existed before life and is how life came to be. A lot of skeptics may want to jump in and say that the existence of Universal Life Force has not been proved. Well, that is true of Consciousness as well, you can’t make consciousness you can’t collect it in a specimen jar, but everyone agrees that it exists because we experience it from the moment we wake till the moment we sleep. Universal Life Force is something you have to prove to yourself and the exercises I am giving you are to help you do this. In the Evolution of Consciousness we are working strictly from the ‘U perspective’ - what ‘U’ experience is that counts.
The evolution of the Universe stared with a homogeneous reality that evolved becoming increasingly complicated and well organized, until now at least. My theory is that, with the evolution in human beings, this phase of Evolution is has reached completion and can go no further. The human race has reached ‘maximum complexity’ and that any additional complexity is counter productive - it makes thing worse not better. This means that in order to evolve we must get ‘simpler’ in terms of our consciousness, our lives, and our technology; we desperately need to simplify things. Making more complicated machines and societies with more and more laws and institutions is making life increasing difficult. Live is like a house of cards, keep it small and simple and if it falls you just build it again. Modern life is like a vast house of cards and is dangerous unstable. This brings us back to what I said at the start of this book:
Like Nirvana, the Evolution of Consciousness is eternal, continuous without endings or beginnings. From whatever level you have reached, you have get to the next - that is all. Nirvana is ‘homogeneous' reality.
Building fancy pyramids, and evolving ever more complicated technology instead of Evolving Conscious is a ‘Great’ but ‘understandable’ Mistake. People are only continuing an evolutionary process that is billions of years old not having noticed somewhere in the last few thousand God has called ‘half time’ and the teams must change sides.
So how do we ‘simplify our existence? We must begin by simplifying our consciousness, simplify that and everything else will follow suit. All our multiple levels of personality and sub-personality, all the ‘different’ people we become at different stages of our lives and in different circumstances is way too complicated.
Having so many personas and sub-personas is a hassle that we can do without, to a large degree at least. This is why discovering your True Self is so important. The True Self is much simpler than the everyday, or Relative Self which is constantly changing and manifesting Sub Selves. The True Self is one unified being which never really changes in nature. Like Godric Gryffindor's Sword in the tales of Harry Potter the True Self only absorbs that which makes it stronger. The True Self evolves by absorbing complicated things and making them simple - homogenizing them in fact.
I am explaining all this at length, because you must know what to do with the power of ULF before you get the power, otherwise you may do yourself and others more harm than good. Power in itself is neither good nor bad, and ULF is no exception. Universal Life Force exaggerates whatever it touches and so you need make sure that you are exaggerating only the ‘good’ and not the ‘bad’. This is the difference between black and white magic. If you gather Universal Life Force and channel it into negative emotions you will become more powerfully negative - the ‘dark side’ of the force. When you practice gathering the Universal Life Force you need to consciously channel it into your True Self. In this way you will balance your nature and improve all aspects of your being at the same time. If you channel the power of ULF into your everyday personality all kinds of negative traits that you did not even realize you had, can increase. I know this from personal experience which is why I am warning you of the danger - gathering ULF is very powerful practice and must be done properly.
What is the nature of Universal Life Force? ULF takes on many forms and blends or synthesizes with the elements of nature. It rises up with flames, and descends with lighting, flows with water, floats with the wind, and come to rest in the earth. When Universal Life Force enters plants it causes wood to grow more quickly, flowers to be more beautiful, fruits to be more tempting, roots to go deeper. In animals it makes blood richer, the eyes shine more brightly, sinews more elastic, senses more acute, and intelligence greater. Universal Life Force does much more than this, but that is something for to contemplate yourself. When the Universal Life Force enters our bodies it synthesizes with our consciousness and they become one. Our consciousness is the cohesive power that holds our complex biology together and keeps us alive and so more consciousness means, a stronger body, mind and spirit.
Universal Life Force like all living things has preferences; it is attracted to some things more than others. It is in all things and all places, but not in equal amounts. The easy way to gather Universal Life Force is to find somewhere there is plenty of to be found. Natural locations have the most ULF, particularly sheltered spots with flowers, trees, streams and waterfalls. Temperature is important too, not too hot not too cold. These rules come from basic Fung Shui, but it is lot more complicated than that. You can read up Fung Shui or you can just experiment for yourself and see what conditions give you the best ‘High’. You have probably experienced the benefit of absorbing Universal Life Force for yourself on a day out in the country, especially if you exercised as well. After a day like this you feel great and your body is much stronger and healthier than usual. This is because the power of the Universal Life Force has entered your consciousness and so everything about you stronger. If you remember that ‘good feeling’ you probably felt ‘larger’ as well. This feeling of ‘largeness’ is because when you collect ULF it fills up your True Self like a balloon. Normally, the True Self is under powered and that is why you cannot ‘feel’ it. Another good name for the True Self is ‘Holiday High Self’. Unfortunately though, this pleasant effect soon fades when you get back home. Equally unfortunate you may not have a wooded spring at the end of your garden, or even a garden at all. This means that you will have work a bit harder and ‘summon’ the Universal Life Force yourself.
Getting Universal Life Force to enter buildings requires effort, but once inside it will stay there for a while so if you practice in a room regularly the Universal Life Force will build up. Some mystics like caves for this reason as once in a cave the Universal Life Force is effectively trapped; so even if all you have is a grotty basement, then that will do. Certain objects attract Universal Life Force such as well, flowers, plants, crystals, icons, colorful pictures and fragrant oils. All the stuff you buy from the local Fung Shui emporium. How much Universal Life Force can you attract this way? It helps but don’t expect filling your room with delightful trinkets to make a big different. Attracting Universal Life Force is a bit like getting rich - the more money you have, the more you can make. Universal Life Force is attracted to consciousness and more the powerful and highly evolved you become the more ULF you will attract. Our Consciousness is an evolved form of Universal Life Force and ‘like attracts like’. This another reason why the human race is in such a pathetic condition, people don’t have enough good consciousness to attract the Universal Life Force and so sink ever deeper in to materialism, which degrades their consciousness further still. This is the same problem as with the Meaning of Life; your life has no meaning until you can comprehend the Meaning of Life.
This brings us back the ‘Synthesis of Being’ or ‘Cocktail Self’. The reason we can use tools better than any other animals is because we can ‘Synthesize’ with material objects. When you use a tool it becomes an extension of your arm, you have ‘synthesized’ with it - ‘you’ have become ‘it’ and ‘it’ has become ‘you’. The Arts, music, any sport that uses a bat, racing cars; all these disciplines require a high level of synthesis with the ‘tool’. Synthesis does not stop at the end of your ‘tool’ either, and you can ‘project’ your synthesis beyond your body; like when you throw a stone, or fire a gun, because in order hit a target you must ‘feel’ it, and ‘feel’ is a common word for synthesize. What is actually happening when you ‘Synthesize’ with something is that your Consciousness is leaving your body, entering’ the object, which then becomes a part of your Consciousness; like another ‘shot of rum’ in the ‘cocktail’. This is how Consciousness controls matter, and of all living creatures on this earth we are the best at ‘projecting’ our Consciousness, in this way.
So, our Consciousness can leave our bodies at will and ‘grasp’ on to anything it wishes to and this includes the Universal Life Force that is all around us. We can reach out, take hold of Universal Life Force and ‘suck’ it back into our Consciousness. To get plenty of Universal Life Force you need a really powerful ‘sucking’ action and this requires more than just the power of your mind. The emotions are strong, elastic, and extremely ‘sticky’ - once they get hold of something they don’t like to let go. The trick is to get the emotions to attach themselves to the Universal Life Force. You have already learned how attach your emotions to emotional keywords and Mantras so we can use an extension of this technique to hook them on to Universal Life Force. You are used to experiencing emotions as being within your body, now you must learn to extend your feelings far beyond that; this is an advanced and powerful technique.
To begin, first reach out with your Awareness, being aware of things outside the body is normal and most people have no trouble doing this. Then you follow with your Concentration which is more ‘solid’ than Awareness. Lastly, your emotions follow your Concentration and so the ‘connection’ is made. This is like shooting an arrow with a string attached and then using the string to pull a rope; Robin Hood gets into castles that way – we are to break into heaven.
Try it now: reach out with your Awareness as far as you can and become aware of the entire space around you. Next, Concentrate on the space; if you Concentrate correctly this should shift the balance of your perception. When you are just ‘aware’ of the space around you, your body feels more ‘full’ than the space. When you concentration hard on the space around you though, the space will begin to feel more ‘full’ that your body. This sensation is hard to describe, but if you practice this a few times and you will understand. You can’t Concentrate like this for long though, as after a just a little while your brain gets tired and this is another way you know if you are doing right. Try again and this time ‘imagine’ the Universal Life Force in the space. You will have to use your imagination at first, but later you will feel the ULF for real.
The next step is to persuade your emotions to leave your body and to do this you will have to use some ‘bait’; Emotional Keywords in a simple Mantra:
Love is all around Me
I am Love.
Now, pay attention, this could be the most important lesson you ever learn!
1. Pronounce the words “Love is all round Me” and extent your Awareness as quickly and as far you can beyond your body. This is to ‘summon’ the Universal Life Force.
2. As soon as you Awareness has reached its maximum spread, send your Concentration to follow your Awareness; try to make the space beyond your body feel more ‘full, than the space within it.
3. Begin to contract your Concentration and Awareness together but just a little bit.
4. Pronounce the words “I am Love” and ‘swell’ your Emotions to meet your Concentration as it returns.
5. Suck your Emotions, Concentration and Awareness back into your body in one powerful, steady suck.
Be sure to really ‘Feel’ the Love’ when you say “I am Love”, and then ‘ratchet up the Love’ for each successive round of the Mantra. Each phrase should take 5- 10 seconds. If you imagine the rhythmic way that a sea anemone extends and retracts its tentacles, that is the kind of ‘feel’ that we looking for. Start speaking in whisper and gradually build the volume, while increasing the intensity of your emotion. When you get as loud as you wish to, go back to a whisper and build up again. At the end finishes on a long “I am Love”.
You need to follow these instructions pretty exactly; it may seem a bit ‘fiddly’ at first but the setting up the right practice habits in the first place is easier than having to keep changing them. After a while this technique will become automatic, like pressing the clutch before you change gear. Extending the emotions carelessly into space can cause an unpleasant sensation called ‘loss of soul’; if you don’t believe me try it for yourself. ‘Loss of soul’, is hard to describe exactly but it makes you feel anxious and prevents you from gathering ULF successfully. By ensuring that your Concentration is already moving back toward your body before releasing the emotions you avoid this problem. Get this technique right and each time you ‘suck’ the ULF into your body (actually into your True Self) you will get a most delightful sensation. This sensation will get better and better as you practice and in the end you will be ULF junkie like me just living for the next ‘fix’ of Divine Love. Never forget that whether your practice works or not is entirely down to the strength of the emotional connection, the emotions are what makes things ‘real’ for us – otherwise this is just ‘words on paper’. That is why I have explained how make the link in such detail; more than any other author I believe.
Understanding exactly what you are doing and why is also vital. We are logical beings and never really get enthusiastic about things we don’t properly understand. This is why I taught you about the Meaning of Life, to control internal dialog and the True Self before hand, so that you are properly prepared. Gathering ULF in itself is not a ‘secret’ the exact method for doing so usually is. If successfully manage to extend and retract your ‘Love’ then whether you know it or not you will collect some ULF. The reason you may not feel it at first is because your consciousness is not powerful, but that problem will cure itself if you preserve and you will begin to feel the ULF with greater and greater clarity.
After practicing remain seated and ‘feel’ your True Self, yourself as ‘you always been’ and ‘always will be’. The True Self is the size of your aura. You need to get ‘comfortable’ just sitting ‘being yourself’, not as you are at work, at home, last year, last decade - just be yourself pure and simple and enjoy it. This is a beautiful and valuable meditation and the awareness of the True Self is something you want cultivate, try to be aware of it all day. Do this and you will come to know yourself better, and develop wisdom as well as power.
1. Gathering the Universal Life Force is the way to evolve your consciousness. Without it your consciousness will not evolve much, if at all, because you can’t get enough energy from just eating and breathing.
2. Universal Life Force is a primitive form of consciousness that is everywhere, but it ‘prefers’ some place to others. ULF is attracted to human consciousness and the more powerful your consciousness becomes the more ‘attractive’ you are to ULF.
3. When Universal Life Force enters into a living being it increases the power of that being’s consciousness and its physical body as well.
4. Human beings are very good at extending consciousness into objects to control them. They can also extend consciousness into Universal Life Force and so gather it.
5. To get plenty of Universal Life Force you need to ‘hook’ your emotions to it by using emotional keywords.
6. The Universal Life Force must be stored in your True Self so that strengthens all that is best in you.
Here is another energy gathering Mantra for you to try.
Gathering the Universal Life Force from the Six Dimensions
Hold on, six dimensions? I thought there were only three. Well, that’s a matter of perspective, in scientific thinking it is normal to look at things from the outside. Take a cube; if you look at it from the outside it has three dimensions; height, width and depth. If we take the perspective from somewhere inside the cube though it has six; up, down, right, left, behind and in front. The scientific perspective is always taken from a hypothetical point (imaginary) outside the object that is being viewed. Science sees things from the ‘outside’ so that it can be ‘impartial’ (not bothered either way) and get to the ‘truth’ free from opinion. In Evolving Consciousness and many other ‘mystical studies’ the perspective is taken from the point of view of the observer. We are trying to find out what something makes us feel, our personal experience, rather than an objective (free from personal opinion) view – this is the ‘U Perspective’.
Universal Life Force is present in each of the six dimensions. Each dimension contains Universal Life Force of a different quality.
The Love of Earth is the joy of being alive and in a physical body. It is eternally youthful and vital. It gives us form and density.
The Love of Stars is inspiring and makes dreams come true. It is like dust, ‘Dream Dust’ and if you get enough of it you will become a ‘Dream-maker’, a person of vision who makes the dreams of others come true. It is also the Law, the Law of the Universe, and so lends ‘authority’ to one who holds its power.
The Love of the North is cool like water. Like water it helps you to find your way through the most difficult passages. The North brings calm and detachment and makes your concentration ‘impregnable’.
The Love of the South is fiery and passionate. It gives commitment and firm purpose. It also gives great strength of mind and body.
The Love of the West is like the wind it can travel to all places and knows all things. It also has the power to bring successful conclusion to all matters
The Love of the East is electric and it renews and revitalizes. The East is at end of Mantra as in Evolving Consciousness we must end on a beginning – such is the way of the Monad.
The Love of the Earth ………….is Mine
The Love of the Stars ………….is Mine
The Love of the North …………is Mine
The Love of the South………… is Mine
The Love of the West ………….is Mine
The Love of the East…………... is Mine
To begin sit comfortable facing East and preferably with good posture; you don’t want to call upon the god’s of the six dimensions slumped over like a geek. Pronounce the word “The Love of the Earth” and try to make it feel like you are really ‘summoning’ something. As you say words, stretch your Awareness down into the earth beneath you as far as you can, and then Concentrate on that area. In the silence between the first and seconds half’s of the phase, begin to pull your Concentration back while at the same time ‘swelling’ your emotions to meet your Concentration. Make one big steady ‘up suck’ to pull everything back into your True Self. When all of your ‘Love’ has returned, pronounce the words, ‘Is Mine’ with conviction. This will to seal the ULF into your True Self. This is exactly the same as in the last exercise.
Repeat this for the rest of the Mantra. Getting the timing nice and smooth is the key to successful energy gathering, so feel free to experiment a bit - just like making love; the technique is standard but everyone has their own ‘rhythm’.
As in the previous exercise you can increase the volume of the chant each round. Better still, if you can sing you can rise in tone and musical notation is in appendix x at the back of this book. Raising tone and volume are big help in getting your emotions connected. Once you are used to practicing out loud it is good to try without sound, and eventually without internal dialog; just feel the power! Once you have mastered all three techniques you choose which is best according to circumstances. Another advantage of saying the Mantra out loud is that you can ‘drown out’ external noises. Don’t worry if you get the directions all wrong, you can get that sorted out in time.
Gathering from the Six Dimension has many benefits. If you gather ULF from all directions at once, keeping your concentration really even on all sides is impossible. You need to get all Six Dimensions working evenly as this will balance your consciousness nicely. Another benefit is that your consciousness will be ‘sealed’ in all directions as well. Practicing gathering ULF from all sides at once is good too, as it requires less concentration and you can practice while walking, jogging, and swimming and other exercises (I shall teaching some really great Yogic breathing to use with it later). To learn this you can combine the Mantra from the previous level as shown below. Remember, in the Mantra we call the True Self, Monad. Use the energy gathering technique from this section and this will make a great a power gathering meditation. Working each direction individually and all directions at once is excellent practice.
I am Monad
I am Perfect
I am Love All Things
I am Monad
I am Perfect
I get High
The Love of the Earth ………….is Mine
The Love of the Stars ………….is Mine
The Love of the North …………is Mine
The Love of the South………… is Mine
The Love of the West ………….is Mine
The Love of the East…………... is Mine
After practicing for a few months the ‘aura’ of your consciousness will start to feel ‘elastic’ and over the years this gets stronger and stronger.
Don’t forget to use a little ‘receptive’ meditation afterwards. Just relax and be your True Self for ten minutes.
 The mind readily provides memories it considers to be ‘relevant’ information, if you ask it for an obscure memory it pretends not to remember. You have to make a ‘special request’, remind yourself periodically what you want to remember and sooner or later it just ‘pops’ up.
 The Monad has a broader and deeper meaning that this, as it includes social relations and the relations between the other levels of self, which are all Monads in their own right. The Divine being is also a Monad as is the Totality of the Self. These additional levels of meaning are something to add over time so that meditation becomes progressively more profound. In all my Mantras though, the word Monad is always be focused on the True Self.
 There will be a whole section on the ‘Perfect Self Image’ later in this book, but you need to complete the ‘Alchemical Wedding’ and bond your masculine and feminine nature before your ‘Perfect Self Image’ can truly become manifest.